Forever

Last saturday was my 31st birthday. I’m no longer young. I think my mental barrier was set at 30. You know…at that age one can still consider oneself in the late late twenties…but 31, is definedly not a teen age anymore, no matter the perspective or the attitude one keeps.

Im starting to fully understand now, as I get older that “every act has a consequence” and that we have to live life at its fulliest.

“Forever” is no longer in my mental vocab, and I’m coming to understand more and more clearly that nothing lasts for ever. Things change, people change…nothing is eternal and we are here on this earth for just a definate period of time.

Is not that im pesimistic, i think it’s just a fact of life. Keeping this in mind, one should make the best of his life. Enjoy every moment but also being responsible. The idea of  ”everything is allowed” does not entirely fit my way of doing things. Well, i’d add a second part to this sentece: “everything is allowed as long as you are prepared for the consequences and you think you can take them”. Every action brings a reaction, and everything that one does will make a change on something or someone. It might not be a big change. Maybe just a slight perception over something, but after a while, this might become bigger, depending on our actions or emotions afterwards. So, one has to be careful with what road to choose. And also when to choose it.

I’m no longer 21 and I dont have “all my life ahead of me” as i used to think. This doesnt mean life is over. On the contrary, i now have more chances than maybe 10 years ago to, for example, travel.

No regrets, no turnbacks. Life is a one-chance-only game. Our lives are not like a game that we can save before some difficulty and tryout the risky scenario with the knowledge and confidence that no matter if we dont get it right at first, one can always go back and re-start just where one left it.

This thought doesnt stop me from doing things that i like or that i consider risky. It just makes me more aware of every situation. I try to weigh the pros and cons, the odds and the chances. what are the probabilities that something cannot go the way i planned it?, what are the probabilities that something could go wrong…or even terribly wrong?.  And in that case, would i be able to assume it?

This new feeling of awareness on everyday situation has followed me for some time and has made me think.

Life expectations and motivations have also popped up in my head. How good is one’s life? Where is the reference? Do i have to compare it with my life before now?, with other people’s life at  the same age? with my own expectation and plans?

There is no need for comparaisons. As long as one’s happy, that’s all that one should care about. Nothing is forever. Our time is limited, and even if we could have done something different some time before, we have to go on with the path we decided to take when we got to the crossroad. Whatever made us take that path and not another one is long gone. No need to think about it. No need to think of “what if…”.

Life is like a box of chocolates, and one has to eat the chocolates to enjoy it. Try them. There will be a few that we’ll love, some others might leave a sorrow taste. They’re all good. In fact without bitter moments, without feeling the fear sometimes, we wouldnt have the chance to enjoy some sweet moments in a much intense way as if life was all about just good without bad.

So to sum up: Enjoy your life. You’re the star, the director and the producer. Make whatever you want with it and be sure of what you want. Or at least, try to see where you’re heading to. There might be no second chance, you might be walking a one-way street. Dont look back, put a smile on your face and keep walking. Whatever comes next will make you stronger and improve your life skills.

You’ll change.

Life is change.

Happiness never stays still and you’ll have to always chase it…

…but not forever