This very moment

I think i’ve already posted something like this some while ago, but i feel like doing it again today so, here it is:

Ever since I was a child i’ve had a great life. Even if i didnt appreciate it, i had very good experiences and wonderful chances thanks to my parents mostly. When i grew up and was in my teenage years, i started to realise how fortunate I was with the life i had. And in my twenties, i thanked my parents for everything they did for me, everything they stopped doing too.

Some days are good, some are bad, but the overall is higher than average. Much higher. Sometimes i forget about this and i get angry for no reason. I know i shouldnt be even upset with the life i have, but this happens. It happened yesterday. Out of nowhere, anger and rage came out and i felt very bad. Luckly, it didnt last long and i managed to control it in a reasonable time.

This morning i realised again how lucky I am. How fortunate i am of having the friends i have, and having so many opportunities. Its a feeling of being concious and aware of whatever you are doing at the same moment. Watching yourself from outside and realising what you’re up to. It’s like driving your car: When i first started, i was fully aware of everything. As time passed, it became more of a habit and i didnt have to pay much attention because i took some things for granted. This feeling im talking about is like being aware of the gear you’re driving after 12 years of driving experience. A kind of awakening.

In this very moment, i cant feel but happy. And it’s great.