Truth that hurts

Would you rather live happy without knowing the reality around you or would you want to know it even if it hurts you?

It depends on my state of mind. In general i rather know that not know no matter how hard/shocking that reality might be. I think i can take almost anything.

Sometimes i think knowing something wont do me any good and its rather better to not know it, but if after a while i end up knowing it, i feel stupid for having lived in a lie. A happy person that didnt know what was going on around him. I find it rather sad.

I dont think that getting hurt for knowing something is bad. I rather live unhappy in truth than happy in lies. In general i think that the more you know, the closer you are to your reality, and the decisions you make will be more coherent with the real reality.

But what is reality? Is the world like it is or is it how we see it? What part do we see? Why do we see that and not another one? How do we shape our world? Can knowing all the possible facts help you make the right choices? What is the goal here?: Being happy or being happy accepting the reality around oneself?

I think anyone can be happy. You could be more or less happy depending on your acceptance with what’s around you. Happiness start right after sadness. If i could put those two feelings in a straight line, sadness would go from one side of the line, where the “value” of the feeling would be at its max, and then decreasing until a very small amount of sadness. Then a small amount of happiness would come and would keep on rising until complete happiness.

I think anyone can be happy. It just depends on where one is in this line from 100% sad to 100% happy. I want to be close to the 100% happy side, and one of the things i consider the most important is knowing the facts. The truth. The reality as raw as possible. If one can be happy knowing and accepting the reality as it its, without lying to oneself, without making up side stories to give more sense to the parts that dont match with one’s view of the world, then i think that one person is close to complete happiness. A complete acceptance of facts, being truly ok with them, understanding them and sharing them with others.

I cannot say that today i am as happy as i could be. I still have some stories running around my mind these days to cheat myself, making some time for myself until i can accept the reality that is happening to me as I write these lines.

I need some time to cope with the lies i’ve been telling myself lately and accept the reality as it really is and not as i’d like it to be.