Competitive people

Am I a competitive person? Some people say so, and eventhough sometimes i think the same, i wouldnt use the term “competitive” to describe one part of my personality but more “self improvement feeling”.

I do like to strength my weakness, to get better day by day in every possible aspect of my life. When i am with other people, i see in them things i think i lack of and the feeling of “if he/she can do it, why not me too?” comes up naturally. This is not just talking about sports or doing stuff like cooking or playing, but also in other levels.

If i am around a person who is very extroverted and like his attitude towards life, i want to get some of that, improve that part of me to become more like the other person, and then make it part of me in my own way.

That’s how i’ve became the way i am today. I have become along the years a much more spontaneous, active and extroverted person than i was before. And i think it’s good.

If i see something in a person that i like and that maybe i dont have, i take it and make it part of me. At the same time if i see something i dont like about a person and realise i am the same way, i try to get rid of it. I guess that the way it goes is something like this:

-Hey, i like/hate the way he/she does this or that

-Am I like that? Could i be like that? Would i like to be like that? what can i do to make things the way i would like them to be?

I know it sound very much like programming conditions, but i believe that in a subconcious level, we all make these sort of yes/no self-questions to choose in daily situations. People just havent really stopped to think and written down how their decission making system works.

Its obvious that if you like a person, the personality, the attitude… you spend more time together and at the end, both people tend to act alike, because they have both “improved” themselves taking and leaving the things they liked and disliked from each other.

So, am I competitive? somewhat. But its my aim to be better. A competition with myself between the person i am today and the person i want to be tomorrow.

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