I’ve been working lately…

a lot. Getting things done and moving forward. I like that feeling.

I love the work im doing. I can see the results and feel things are moving forward. The only thing that bothers me at the moment is a guy im working with. He is in charge of the commercial part of the work. I dont know how he does his job outside and to our customers, but the thing is, he is just a lil asshole around the office. Full of bullshit, excuses and complains. At the end, i dont see what he does. He always has an excuse not to get what he is assigned to do and apparently is never his fault. He has clearly a lack of commitment, interest and self confidence…and he already past his thirties some time ago.

Just listening to how he talks, you can get an idea of how he thinks: Its impossible, i’m not sure, i’ll see what I can do, its not my fault, i did all i could but…i cant do that, i dont know, is not my responsability, i’ll ask, check it yourself, ask someone else…the list goes on and on.

It didnt bother me that much until now, but the fact is i can no longer rely on him and that sucks. If i ask him for anything, he is like making me a huge favor that took him tremendous effort but finally he “struggled” to do…whether is getting a price of a device or going to buy a spare part.

It bothers me so much, i had to get angry today and that upset me a lot. Why cant he do things that normal people can do too? I guess is a lack of self confidence as i said before. He never takes the first step, always waits for someone else to make the first move, never takes responsability and always have someone to take responsability of what he said or did.

I think he realises what he’s doing, how he is behaving, but somehow i dont think he can handle it. I should have some more understanding with him i know, but its getting on my nerves. I ask him as less as possible because i dont want to get an excuse for an answer of why he couldnt do whatever.

He should start changing his vocab. “Is not possible” for “its possible”, “the problem is…” for “the solution is…” those sort of things. Everything seems challenging and as a big task for him. Big or small, its always an effort.

On the other hand, whatever other people do is “easy”. He’s doing the hard part. Fighting against all elements…he should definedly change his mental frame. His attitude and his motivation.

I cant stand it any longer and i think the time has come for me to shake him a little bit, try to open his eyes and make him realise what he is doing, how his behaviour is mining all the office motivation and how we are slowly turning our backs to him.

He might be a good person, and a good seller, but as a coworker, i wouldnt bet on him. Not even a cent.

Enough said.