Freedom

Freedom of movement, freedom of thought, freedom to do whatever you want whenever you feel like.

But freedom with responsability, being aware that all actions have reactions.

A lot of people misunderstand freedom with lack of responsability. Everyone is responsible of his own actions and should act according to his believes and circumstances around him in a certain place and time.

I am experimenting a moment of freedom lately, or at least, that’s what i want to think. I can do whatever I want as long as I am responsible and assume the possible consequences to my actions. And thinking about it, i’ve been doing pretty much whatever I felt like (more or less) all my life, since I can remember. I am a privileged. I know.

Freedom comes on top of the best things to have in this life together with health and fulfillment. Money can buy you some freedom, but at the same time, it chains you down. It’s a tricky situation. One has to find a balance between how much money one needs to feel free without feeling chained.

I guess noone is entirely free. If “you have it all”, whatever you own owns you back, and so you are chained to your possesions. The less you have, the more free you are. On the other side, a person who has nothing at all, one who lives in misery is not free either. He has basic  needs he cannot cover  in his daylife and is really submitted to keeping himself alive, rather than really doing what he wants.

After rereading myself I have an Idea of what freedom means for me: Not depending on external facts and being totally independent. Of course this is not possible since we are living in a society and there are bondings we cannot get rid of if we accept to live in it. Nothing is for free and one has to give to receive, but how much are you ready to give? How much do you want to get? Is there a limit?

100% pure freedom is utopic, and getting close to it is never an easy task. One has to always keep a balance between what one desire and the reality one is living in.

Practice Talking

It is the best way to solve things out.

I have definedly come to the conclusion that most of the dissapointments and misunderstanding between people is because they dont communicate enough. Being in the same page is important, but letting someone else know what page are you in is also good. Explaining your point of view, listen to the others. You might not come to a meeting point, and understanding, but at least you know why the other is acting the way he does. Why people do the things they do. Getting to know the background and the reasons for a choice, timing, enviroment…there are so many variables…and explaining a decision is as simple as listing the facts.

I talked with my college and it went well. Before i had this conversation, i talked with my boss, and he opened my eyes, or i’d better say, show me a part that was kept hidden to my eyes and that i didnt realize it existed. Nevertheless, i had a conversation with my college to share and let him know what i expected of him, why and how. This might not change his way of behaving (i doubt it), but at least he knows where i stand.

At the same time, he explained himself to me, and no i understand him better than before. Another pair of glasses to see life. Different from mine, but also as good.

I guess after a talk, our working relationship is stronger than before and i couldnt recommend anything else for those of you who are having a rough time with someone else but to talk with that other person, explain yourself and be ready to listen openly. some understanding is never a thing people have too much of these days…

I’ve been working lately…

a lot. Getting things done and moving forward. I like that feeling.

I love the work im doing. I can see the results and feel things are moving forward. The only thing that bothers me at the moment is a guy im working with. He is in charge of the commercial part of the work. I dont know how he does his job outside and to our customers, but the thing is, he is just a lil asshole around the office. Full of bullshit, excuses and complains. At the end, i dont see what he does. He always has an excuse not to get what he is assigned to do and apparently is never his fault. He has clearly a lack of commitment, interest and self confidence…and he already past his thirties some time ago.

Just listening to how he talks, you can get an idea of how he thinks: Its impossible, i’m not sure, i’ll see what I can do, its not my fault, i did all i could but…i cant do that, i dont know, is not my responsability, i’ll ask, check it yourself, ask someone else…the list goes on and on.

It didnt bother me that much until now, but the fact is i can no longer rely on him and that sucks. If i ask him for anything, he is like making me a huge favor that took him tremendous effort but finally he “struggled” to do…whether is getting a price of a device or going to buy a spare part.

It bothers me so much, i had to get angry today and that upset me a lot. Why cant he do things that normal people can do too? I guess is a lack of self confidence as i said before. He never takes the first step, always waits for someone else to make the first move, never takes responsability and always have someone to take responsability of what he said or did.

I think he realises what he’s doing, how he is behaving, but somehow i dont think he can handle it. I should have some more understanding with him i know, but its getting on my nerves. I ask him as less as possible because i dont want to get an excuse for an answer of why he couldnt do whatever.

He should start changing his vocab. “Is not possible” for “its possible”, “the problem is…” for “the solution is…” those sort of things. Everything seems challenging and as a big task for him. Big or small, its always an effort.

On the other hand, whatever other people do is “easy”. He’s doing the hard part. Fighting against all elements…he should definedly change his mental frame. His attitude and his motivation.

I cant stand it any longer and i think the time has come for me to shake him a little bit, try to open his eyes and make him realise what he is doing, how his behaviour is mining all the office motivation and how we are slowly turning our backs to him.

He might be a good person, and a good seller, but as a coworker, i wouldnt bet on him. Not even a cent.

Enough said.