Random Thoughts

So here is a bunch of thoughts that have been hopping in and out of my head for the past days:

Who are you people?

I can get stats on how many people visit this blog, and the past few weeks have been “unusual”. Around 40-50 people have visited every day this blog and im really wondering who. Not that i NEED to know, ‘cos all this blog is a personal excercise as a way to clear up my thoughts and put them in order. I found some time ago that writing helps me to know what i want and where i stand towards life experiences and situations. Helps me express what i think. On the other hand, knowing who you are would be interesting. I only know of 3 or 4 people who read it, so im really asking for the rest of you to drop a comment or a “hi” so i know who you are. I know you’re there!…so come out of the dark and uncover yourself.

I kind of feel like someone from ‘Lost’ (by the way, the 4th season is out and I cant wait to see what happens). For me, you are “The others”. I know you are there. Now i wanna know who you are and why are you reading these posts.
Again, you are free to do whatever you want, and i will be more than ok with whatever decission you take.

This brings me to another thought:

Sometime ago i got to a conclusion that has been present in every decission i have taken ever since. This state of mind, this inner peace which i recall almost every day has brought me to a position where i can sometimes feel as if i was in a dead flat water lake when all around me is falling apart and drawning in the middle of a raging black ocean storm. Maybe i pictured it in a very dramatic way… Nothing shocking has really happened to me lately, but still, i think i can say i have a much better sense of acceptance than a year ago. By acceptance i want to mean “being ok with whatever happens in life” whether is good or bad, i always try to stay cool. Nothing is as good or as bad as it seems at first. Nothing is “the best that one could have imagined” or “the worst that could have happened”.

Im living with a relaxed state of mind at the moment. Not too stressed, not worried, no hard feelings, no regrets. Emptyness. Not a “i-dont-give-a-shit” indiferent emptiness but a “im-cool-with-everything” happiness.

Well, that’s all for now boys and girls. This double-post sunday special has come to an end. I will be waiting for a sign, comment or thought….or not.