Satori

What is it all about?

What is what everyone is looking for in their lives?

What is happiness?

After receiving a sms from my brother tonight, it all suddenly became clear to me. Like satori happened to Buddha under the tree when he was resting. Unpredicted. Unexpected. By surprise.

People say that if you stop looking for something, you will eventually get it. Maybe the aim to get something really bad narrows down your vision to the point that you lose complete sight of everything else. Even what surrounds you and what you have.

Tonight, awakening has come. And i feel free. I’m happy. I now understand what happiness is all about. What people want. What I had been looking for for such a long time.

What is it?

More money? A girlfriend? A better job? A better house? A better life? …No my friends. Tonight the answer came to me instantly.

I had been wondering about my life this afternoon. My actual situation. My life. My enviroment. I watched a funny movie and I laughed a lot. I was relaxed. And in that moment, the right sms from the right person at the right time arrived. A message that clicked something in my head and made me realise of what happiness was all about. The big picture. The whole fucking picture.

I started to think that there I was looking for something for the past years, and when I thought i gave up (or at least took a long break from it), I suddenly got it. I felt fulfilled and in complete happiness.

So here is what i came down regarding my actual situation after my afternoon thought: I must admit that my work might not be THE best well paid. In fact, i dont earn that much money now since I barely started working and I will most probably be the one that earns the least among all my friends that are working nowadays. A girlfriend? …dont have one. I Dont think I really need one either (seriously). A better job? Dont need it. The one i have now has everything i can ask for and I dont feel the need for any other. A better house? I’m looking for one at the moment and will get one shortly. A better life?…Why? …Is there any? …What else can I ask for?

Is not like I gave up on all my dreams and goals. I’m not tired. Not even close. I just got started. I’m still young, I have enough money to do whatever I want and go wherever I want in the whole world. Fact. I come and go when I want, with whoever I want, if I want. Dont need to explain myself to anyone but myself. I can do or not as I please and my only limitation is my will.

Here is the key to happiness as I see it now: Be happy with what you have. Be ok with it and enjoy it. Enjoy it as much as you can and take as much as you want from every single moment in your life. Every second counts. Even this very moment right now as you read.

Be willing to grow and get more things (that’s human nature of course), but dont let that greedy feeling blind you from what you already have, because at the end, things will own you instead of the other way around. Enjoy what you have because it’s yours to have. Dont let the feeling of wanting more stuff back you off from enjoying what you already achieved. Dont let your posessions block your horizon nor your far future goals blur your present.

I do of course want to get a bigger house, bigger check, bigger life and better everything. But in the meanwhile, I’m not angry with my situation like i’ve seen in other people lately. Im not sad that i cannot get something else. What I have is fine. I dont want more because I dont need more. And if i ever want more because I need it, i will get it without a doubt.

Tonight, I am sure I can get anything I want out of this life. The question is: Will I really need it? and Will I want to have it?

Sure: More money, you can buy more stuff…but, do I need so much stuff? What’s this social rush these days about? Why do we need to get the latest fastest biggest and coolest whatever?

Today a coworker asked me why my cell phone was so old and why didnt I get a newer one…And my thought was: Because I simply dont need anything else. The one i have does the work and It works for me. I also have a super HP mega pda-phone with navigator, agenda, mp3 and all you can imagine. Do I use it? No. Why?…I simply dont need it. Its on my table and every morning I say to myself…”nah..dont need so much stuff”

So to sum up this crazy torrent of thoughts. What’s all this “happiness” about for me?

Being alright with what you have (which is not against wanting more things at the same time or growing better as I already explained). Keep just what you really need. Not being greedy or having envy of what other people have, earn or do. Being happy with what you are, who you are and how you are. Not everyone will accept it, but it’s all good. Having enough confident to say “no” when you dont want something. Not being bothered by other people’s point of view because you are sure of where you stand and have self respect for yourself. Have selfconfidence about what you know and that whatever is that you wanna get in this life, you will get it. Dont need to know what you want at every single moment (because that changes a lot during a lifetime) but knowing that when the need comes, you will get it whatever it is that you want. Period. As simple as that. As hard to understand as it sound.

Take only what you need and just let the rest go.

Leave it. .

It will just drag you down on your way up.

I must thank my brother for opening my eyes. Tonight I finally understood it.