Mr. Friendly

Everybody loves Mr. Friendly. He’s such a nice guy…

 

I have always considered myself a Mr. Friendly. Never got into a fight, always cool with whatever happened around me. Not looking for confrontation or being in a mood with anyone. Patient, openminded and understanding everyone’s point of view.

 

It wasnt easy to cope with everything and everyone and make all work in a virtual harmony. It all required someone to give up on his goals for the benefit of the whole. I felt that that person was most of the time me. And I know i havent been always trully open and a lot of times i have been quite selfish, but so far, i think i’ve given up on my thoughts and have taken other people’s opinion many more times than I have done what i trully felt like. Maybe it was because of a lack of self confidence, personality or just because i didnt see the point of arguing and losing time with a meaningless situation. I just took the easy way. Be ok and go along.

 

There is a song that says “If you wanna be bad you gotta be tough”. I dont want to be bad or become an ass, but feel like i want to get rid of my “Mr. Friendly” tag. I know there is a middle point between being a “jerk” and being a “Mr.Use-me-as-you-please-cos-i’ll-be-ok”. I got tired of it and I have made myself these days a promise to start taking care of my mental well being and stop tolerating other people’s behavior towards myself that make me feel bad, guilty or sad. I just dont think i deserve to take anyone’s shit and i’m tired of solving everyone’s issues. From today on, i’ll stop being a tissue or a piece of paper anyone can use to clean up, feel better and then throw away. I just dont think i deserve it. I’m fed up.

 

I will be cool with those who WANT me and not USE me. Those who show some interest for me and dont just show up whenever they want me to help them with whatever. And believe me, I know many of those. People who make time for me, who care and who understand me and not just take take take without giving anything back, people who never have time or people who just simply dissapear as soon as they’re done with me. I got sick of that and I am gonna start changing my attitude.

 

Some people might not like it, but I guess that’s what one gets when one stops to follow. You cant have everyone happy and there will be people who dont agree with what i do or say, some people will tell me i’m wrong and some will stop talking to me. I’m ok with that now because i know where i’m standing at. As the song said: You gotta be tough…