Renewed Feeling

Its going to be the first time i spend the entire month of July in Alcalá…in Spain actually. I really can not remember the last time i spent the whole month in Spain. In fact i think i only spent the whole summer in Spain once, when i was 10 or so. Thats how lucky i have been (Not that i want to sound like a pretencious cocksucker)

Fact: I’ve always gone somewhere in summertime. If not Japan or somewhere in Europe, i’ve always gone AT LEAST to the coast to spend a couple of weeks or so.

Now i am in Spain. The whole month. And even if for a lot of people this might be natural, to me is a rare situation. What should i do?

So far, i’m still working at the research lab, so I have my mornings all set up, but i wonder what to do in the evenings. One thing is for sure: I wont study. I cant understand people who start studying the 1st of July for the exams that will be in September. Give yourself a rest! After a whole year, EVERYONE should deserve at least 30 days of not having to think about exams and such. No matter how bad or good you did. Besides, you still have a whole month ahead to study, and if you cant make it during the study year, its highly unprobable that you’re going to make a big difference in 1 month, or even 2.

Ok, just reading myself makes me doubt about my own words, cos maybe you can but my point is: RELAX. Chill and take it easy. No need to stress yourself during sumemer time. Take a drink, just sit there and enjoy this very moment…

I guess summer time is time for students to make a balance on how the school year went, make yourself promises like “Next year i will start studying from day 1″ “i wont leave everything for the last possible second” and so on.  My year has been a disaster from a study point of view. Its hard to admit it, but its a fact and i would be lying to myself if i said something else.

Anyone who has been reading this blog for a while will know that this hasnt been a “spectacular” year for me in general. I dont want to start going down on a pesimistic freefall. There have been GREAT GREAT times of happiness because of personal achievements made, but these moments have been the least.

I understand that success is built after a few crashes, and honestly, i wouldnt call the past 10 months a crash, but they certainly havent been a major success if you know what i mean.

Right now, im putting all my efforts on renewing my goals, packing up my set of skills and looking forward for times to come. Living the present as good as i can, feeling more relaxed than i’ve ever been in the past few weeks, happy and relaxed.

I will still need a few weeks to settle down some turbulence waters and thoughts that have been running in my head for a long time now. Make a decision, make up my mind and go for whatever i decide. Freely. Im gonna give myself some room to think about my future, perspectives, odds and chances…(This sounds familiar somehow, as if i had been here before. Ha!)

This has been a long post sorting out a couple of thougths i guess…but that is what this blog is really all about. In case you havent noticed already, writing helps me figure out things about myself.

This is how i do it: I think freely and whatever pops up to my mind, i type it down, then i read it and say “hey…that’s new…howcome i never thought conciously about this  before?”. Its weird but it works. It helps me at least

Thanks for reading