First stop… Bangkok

First words from BKK. Its been just an hour that i arrived to world famous Kaosan Road. Im staying at MOM-s Guest House (98 Kaosan Road). Looks ok.

Im going for a walk to check out the neighbourhood. Everything is going ok for now

Too much love will kill you

And so will too much partying and sleeping bare naked with your windows open …

Last weekend was a blast, but maybe i over did it. I barely slept 9h the whole weekend, 4h from sunday to monday, 5 monday to tuesday, 4 tuesday to wednesday…now, this shouldnt have been a problem, but not enough sleep plus alcohol and work is a bad mix.

I finally was finished by wednesday. Soar throat, dripping nose, headache, my eyeballs about to explode, killing pain in my ears, body temperature messed up…I’m all set.

The worse thing about this is that im home alone and i could be making parties at home like crazy if it wasnt for this “inconvenient”.

I could have gone out yesterday, i have a bday party tonight and a barbecue on saturday…a schedule too busy for someone who should rest in bed…

I’m leaving on my summer trip this monday, and i definedly wouldnt like to travel sick. Sick travelling can make a pleasant experience like hell on earth, so i’ll try to take it easy, have some rest, chicken soups and vitamins…

Anyone wanna nurse me for a while??

Watta Weekend

Monday 9:32. I woke up at 8:40 today, 1 hour later than usual…had to run and make it on time to work, but despite the time, i only slept 5 and a half hours because we came back late last night from Alicante.

A wonderful weekend. A party weekend. We got there on Friday at 2 am (after a tremendous traffic jam), and went straight to hit the pubs. Hot as hell until 5 am. By the time it cooled down a bit, it was already time to go to bed. Drunk.

The following morning, i woke up at 11, made some food-shopping and went to the beach. Nice and warm. The beach is like a museum: Loads of things to see, but i cannot stay there more than 2 hours (it gets too hot).

Swimming pool, lunch and siesta. Then back to the beach in the evening with an icecream. Back home, a bit more pool time and then a few drinks while having dinner and chatting. At 2 am again back to the pubs. Party party party and laughs. It was better on Saturday night.

We were home by 8 am this time. Sleep till lunch time. I went to the Beach with Amir while the other 2 stayed in bed. Paella & coke at lunch time while watching F1 race on a Sunday.

Swimming pool till 18h, water games & jokes, pack and leave at 22h. Heading back home, we had no traffic this time, we made it in 5h and made it back to Alcala at 3 am.

Im exhausted this morning after a non-stop weekend. Understandable I guess. Now is time to go back to reality, its 9:42 and I’m in no mood to work today. My face is burnt, my whole body is in fact. I’m sleepy and tired, but Watta weekend boys!

90 minutes

That’s how late i was for a job interview…can you believe it? I do. I was there.

It was the second i had that day (yesterday) and i couldnt believe myself when i realized i was late. I got confused with another appointment I had the day before and I was very VERY late. Not good.

I then had to wait an hour for the interviewer to come because, i guess he had more things to do than sit and wait for me.

Anyways, the interview went well finally. I’m quite positive and looking forward to work with these people cos they seem nice and i feel as if i could make something worth in that business. It’s called DSF Technologies…

As far as I know, they work on the engines marketshare and they’re doing good. I’ll tell you about it and how the personal selection went as soon as I know it myself.

Other than that, summer is here, impossible to sleep at night…looking forward for the big summer trip (Bangkok to Singapore) and waiting for this week to pass by. The best way to make time past fast? Enjoying it. That’s why im going to the beach this weekend with some friends, to hit the waves, the pubs, the birds and whatever comes in our way

Think about it

What’s the deal?

Aaaaa’ve been a bit sad on the past 36 hours…nothing really bad, but i started to think about how everyone seem to get on forward with their lives and im feeling stuck in mine.

Dont want people to feel sorry for me, but this is how i am now (an as the purpose of all this is to write down everything as clear as possible, i’m just being consequent).

I think i’ve finally decided what im gonna do with my life: I want to start working or doing something that fulfills me. As long as its something i want to and enjoy doing it’ll be fine. The next question is: What is it? What does fulfill me right now?

Well, here is a list of things that move me forward: Money, Languages, Travel, Telecom stuff, Technology in general, Talking

And here is another with the things i hate: Not passing an exam, programming, sitting, waiting, filling up reports…

How do i get rid of the things i hate and go for the ones that move me? How do i do it? What do i have to do? What’s the deal?

As far as I dont know this answer, i think i’ll be stuck. Maybe i know it already, maybe deep down inside myself i already know it, but i have to want to know it and be ready to face and know what it takes to make that change. A willing desire to make that change and move forward…

The big search

One of the best things of doing a lot of things is that one has may “open ways” to go to in life. If the going gets tough in one of them, one can always “take a break”, focus on other thing and let time pass by to hope for things to change in that way.

Most of the people have 2 or 3 different ways opened at the same time: Life, Work, Relationship…or maybe they spend their time thinking about the house payment and the car.

Its like when a person ask you: So, what are you up to?, meaning “what are you spending your time in these days?”. The answer can be related to his work or whatever other thing he might have his mind into.

So, back to the “opened ways” thing:  A lot of people have more than 2 ways open. I spend my time thinking about my life and future these days: work,study,life at home + entertainment on weekends, holidays… Luckily i dont have big payments to do (car, house…) and belongins to worry about nor a girlfriend to take care of, so, in that way, i’m pretty “on my own”, which i consider a good thing.

I have the basics (Water, food, house) to live a normal life, but still i feel in the need to achieve something more. something that fills up myself, doing something that i truly like, enjoy and dont mind spending 24/7 thinking about and doing.

Im in the big search. I think i will never find it, cos there will always be “something else more” missing. The pursuit of Happiness, as i watched in a recent Will Smith’s movie.

I also heard about Maslow’s Pyramid in a car commercial. I wondered about it and so i looked for what it was about, and i did find some interesting stuff here

Let me ask you this: What are you up to these days? did you find what you were looking for? How far do you think it is? Will you be willing to do whatever it takes to get to it? If you went to the doctor and he told you that you only had 1 more month and after that you would die, what would you do? What would you change? What changes would you be willing to do in your life?

Summer sunshine

Is melting hot in Spain these days…or at least in my room. Hard to be in, hard to sleep…

Summer time is here and im happy. The sun shines and the thongs show more than usual.

I’m doing ok, a bit bored since i have nothing thrilling or intense in my life right now after i finish my job where, to be honest, i aint doing much.

Changing times can come soon. I can feel them, but i dont really know if i want to. I should get out of my confort zone and try new things. That has always been my attitude towards life, or at least, my thought…As Morpheo said:

It is different knowing the path than walking the path.

I guess many people know the path but just a few walk it and do what it takes to get what they want and hope for. Am i willing to walk the path or will i just think about “what if”?

Right now, im just waiting. Waiting still hoping to get through this hell-like weather in Spain.

Renewed Feeling

Its going to be the first time i spend the entire month of July in Alcalá…in Spain actually. I really can not remember the last time i spent the whole month in Spain. In fact i think i only spent the whole summer in Spain once, when i was 10 or so. Thats how lucky i have been (Not that i want to sound like a pretencious cocksucker)

Fact: I’ve always gone somewhere in summertime. If not Japan or somewhere in Europe, i’ve always gone AT LEAST to the coast to spend a couple of weeks or so.

Now i am in Spain. The whole month. And even if for a lot of people this might be natural, to me is a rare situation. What should i do?

So far, i’m still working at the research lab, so I have my mornings all set up, but i wonder what to do in the evenings. One thing is for sure: I wont study. I cant understand people who start studying the 1st of July for the exams that will be in September. Give yourself a rest! After a whole year, EVERYONE should deserve at least 30 days of not having to think about exams and such. No matter how bad or good you did. Besides, you still have a whole month ahead to study, and if you cant make it during the study year, its highly unprobable that you’re going to make a big difference in 1 month, or even 2.

Ok, just reading myself makes me doubt about my own words, cos maybe you can but my point is: RELAX. Chill and take it easy. No need to stress yourself during sumemer time. Take a drink, just sit there and enjoy this very moment…

I guess summer time is time for students to make a balance on how the school year went, make yourself promises like “Next year i will start studying from day 1″ “i wont leave everything for the last possible second” and so on.  My year has been a disaster from a study point of view. Its hard to admit it, but its a fact and i would be lying to myself if i said something else.

Anyone who has been reading this blog for a while will know that this hasnt been a “spectacular” year for me in general. I dont want to start going down on a pesimistic freefall. There have been GREAT GREAT times of happiness because of personal achievements made, but these moments have been the least.

I understand that success is built after a few crashes, and honestly, i wouldnt call the past 10 months a crash, but they certainly havent been a major success if you know what i mean.

Right now, im putting all my efforts on renewing my goals, packing up my set of skills and looking forward for times to come. Living the present as good as i can, feeling more relaxed than i’ve ever been in the past few weeks, happy and relaxed.

I will still need a few weeks to settle down some turbulence waters and thoughts that have been running in my head for a long time now. Make a decision, make up my mind and go for whatever i decide. Freely. Im gonna give myself some room to think about my future, perspectives, odds and chances…(This sounds familiar somehow, as if i had been here before. Ha!)

This has been a long post sorting out a couple of thougths i guess…but that is what this blog is really all about. In case you havent noticed already, writing helps me figure out things about myself.

This is how i do it: I think freely and whatever pops up to my mind, i type it down, then i read it and say “hey…that’s new…howcome i never thought conciously about this  before?”. Its weird but it works. It helps me at least

Thanks for reading